Going Nowhere
It's finally warm outside. Well it was yesterday anyway. Now it's all cloudy and rainy. I don't care. I'm staying home sick anyway. I'm not really sick just really tired. Sometimes I just can't bring myself to leave to house and actually go to school. If I'd gone, I would've come home because I'm so tired. I didnt see any point in going and coming home.
I wish I went to church. I haven't gone in a long time. We didn't even go for Christmas this year. The last time I went was last Easter and that was almost a year ago. I dont even go to church school anymore. It makes me feel really bad. My parents don't care if we go to church or not. But not going makes me feel like I'm doing something wrong. I always thought Roman Catholics were supposed to be really religious. I mean you don't have to like be super involved in church or anything, but we should atleast go on Sunday. But no. We stopped going when my sister was born. I guess it's just to much of a pain to be a good Christian.
I guess I'm not going much of anywhere lately...
Loooong List
Instructions.
1. Copy this whole list into your journal.
2. Bold the things that are true about you.
3. Anything you don't bold is false.
01. When I was younger I made some bad decisions.
02. I don't watch much TV these days.
03. I love psychodelic mushrooms.
04. I love sleeping.
05. I have loads of books.
06. I once slept in a toilet.
07. I love playing video games.
08. I adore marijuana.
09. I watch porn movies. (hahaha)
10. I watch them with my father.
11. I like sharks.
12. I love spiders.
13. I was born without hair and I still have no hair.
14. I like George Bush.
15. People are cool.
16. I have changed a lot mentally over the last year.
17. I have jacuzzi and a Porsche.
18. I have a lot to learn.
19. I carry my knife everywhere with myself.
20. I'm really really smart.
21. I've never broken someone's bones.
22. I have a secret.
23. I hate snow.
24. I drink only milk.
25. Punk rock rules.
26. I hate Bill Gates!
27. I love Chinese food.
28. I would hate to be famous.
29. I am not a morning person.
30. I wear glasses.
31. I don't need glasses.
32. I have potential.
33. I like cheese.
34. My legs are two different sizes.
35. I have a twin.
36. I wear a padded bra. Otherwise I don't have boobs.
37. I can ramble on about absolutely nothing.
38. I'm left-handed.
39. I hate llamas, but I'm one of them.
40. I don't like horror movies.
41. I suck at climbing, but I love it anyway.
42. People hate me usually.
43. I like pop music.
44. I hardly ever go to bed before midnight.
45. I hate parking fines.
46. I know the National Anthem of my country by heart...
47. I know more than two languages.
48. I spend too much time on my computer.
49. I often want to throw my computer out the window.
50. I live on the first floor.
51. I don't like chocolate.
52. I'd like to be more original.
53. I've lied before.
54. Cocks are my favorite birds. (lol!)
55. I want to conquer the world.
56. I wonder what happens when you die.
57. I've read all books about Harry Potter.
58. Eat your dog!
59. I love to exercise.
60. I hate science with a passion.
61. I like to write.
62. I like changes.
63. I hate going to class.
64. I am afraid to die.
65. I hate dish washing.
66. My hair is long, brown, and curly.
67. My nails are nine inches long.
68. One of my favorite colors is black.
69. I like to sleep on the floor.
70. I am hopeless at cooking.
71. I sucked my thumb when I was little.
72. I should be doing something else rather than writing this.
73. I am online a lot, but not on AOL.
74. I hate government.
75. I have a boyfriend.
76. I'm too nice for my own good.
77. I love to read, I read as much as I can. Though I never have time.
78. I don't trust newspapers.
79. I sometimes like arguing.
80. I live in a lagoon.
81. I clean my room once a month. (haha)
82. I'm scared of american fast food.
83. I am prying open my third eye.
84. I love Mozambique.
85. I don't trust any religion.
86. I used to play with barbies.
87. I wanted to be a super hero when I was little.
88. I like listening to wind chimes.
89. I'm very disorganized.
90. My hair is long and straight.
91. I learn a lot.
92. I don't like spicy food.
93. I keep a diary. (doesn't this count?)
94. I can't do cartwheels.
95. I am very lazy.
96. I'm sarcastic.
97. I think my hair is annoying.
98. I'm very emotional.
99. I love being "ab-normal".
100. My left eye is violet and my right eye is a light blue.
Preps
The preps all live down by Melcher Park. I hate going down there sometimes. They're usually all sitting out on somebody's front lawn. When you walk by a couple of them say hi because they feel bad for you. I dont feel bad for me. I'd never want to be a prep. Just because they're "popular" and they get anything they want... I wouldn't want to be popular. It's too much pressure. I like being who I am and not having to worry about being perfect and impressing everyone with how pretty I am. The fact is, most of them are just about as far from perfect as you can get. I really dont know what you'd call me. I'm not a prep or a scumbag or a slut or a punk or a goth. I'm just like...nobody. I wouldn't say I'm a social outcast or anything, I mean I have friends. But we're just not anything special. We're just those girls over there. I don't feel bad for myself. I like being nothing. I don't have any standards to live up to or anything. I can just come to school and be me and no one will care.
Cactus
Last night was the last night of the play. That was kind of repetitive. Oh well. So after the play we went over to Autumn's for her b'day party. I got her a cactus. It was awesome! Now I want a cactus though. Then this afternoon I went to Darling Field with Jeremy, Kayleigh and Jazmin. Kayleigh and Jazmin just showed up at my house unexpectedly just before I was leaving to go for a walk with Jeremy. It kind of annoyed me at first but oh well.
New Template
I love this template. I'm not sure if I'm gonna put up on BlogSkins though cause I think that it's just gonna be my template for a while. Then when I'm board with it it can go up on BlogSkins. For now it's all mine though! ;-)
Anyways last night was opening night for the school play. I think me and Jazmin messed up a little bit. I hope no one noticed. As Caitlin was going up the stairs to meet the prince she ripped her dress! I was trying really hard not to laugh, but it was hard!
A Piano Named Louis
My dad got me and my sister a keyboard as an early birthday present. (Her birthday is like 11 days before mine, so it's a present for both of us) I decided it's name should be Louis. Actually, I like Charles better but Haley said that it should be Louis and so it is. I'm in a really good mood today, so don't even try to piss me off. It isn't going to work, I promise. Today our little Autumn turned 14. This morning she showed up at school wearing a sign that said, "It's my birthday!" Too bad Jazmin missed it, she's been sick. I hope she's better for tomorrow since she's my dance partner in the play and tomorrow is opening night!
Not much info in my last one...
I didnt tell you much of anything in my last entry, did I? Oh well you're not getting anymore. I'm kidding, I'm kidding. So here it goes:
Today I really got it from everybody about that whole making out with Jeremy in front of everybody thing. I really didnt think it was that huge of a deal, but oh well. I have a random quote. "No Mother, I'm just asking because I dont want any." ~Jeremy
It had to do with hard boiled eggs. He wanted a hard boiled egg and he asked his mom how long you cook it for and she was like, "Why, do you want one?" You'd just have to have heard it. Especially over the phone. It was funny.
Oops...
Ok I just re-read this entry and I think it sounded a little wrong. Those were not his exact words so that people dont think Jeremy's a pervert. Don't even say anything Megan, I know what you're thinking. "You're a hore and Jeremy's a pervert, it's perfect!"
50 First Dates
Went to see 50 First Dates with Jeremy, Jazmin, Megan, Erin, Kayleigh and Lauren last night. It was actually a really good movie. The parts of it I saw anyway. Too bad me and Jeremy hadn't been sitting in the row behind everyone else. That way they wouldn't have all been sitting there laughing their heads off because we were making out. And there was no way we kissed for 20 minutes Megan. That's a really long time.
What did I ever do to you Megan?
I cant stand it anymore! A particular person, who's name is Megan, is just really making me mad right now. It's really gone way too far. It was funny the first time, actually you know what? It wasnt. I dont like the nicknames, except for Frenchie, that one's not so bad. I dont like the arguing about anything and everything, its just stupid. And God, atleast stop smacking me. I dont deserve that. What did I ever do to you Megan? If you could, please tell me. Maybe I'm just missing something.
Here is the plan...
I will move to Diaryland when I start 9th grade. Yes that's what I'll do.
My ABC's
A's in school
But that's OK
Cat named Comet
Dammit Jim!
Elmo is my friend
Friday's never going to come
Girl Scouts
Haley is my sister
It's snowing...again
Jeremy is my boyfriend
Kleenex (don't ask :-P)
Love Jeremy
Megan scares me a little bit
No school tomorrow
On the OM team...or atleast I was
Penguins rock!
Quit poking me!
Run away!
Sarah...that's me
Tick-tock
Underwear, something you should always wear
Valentine's Day doesnt suck so much anymore
Wednesday is tomorrow
X-acto knives can be dangerous
You know that I'm not smart enough to understand that.
Zero is spelled the same in French
Moving
I think I may be moving to Diary Land soon. I like the way it's set up better than Blogger. Don't worry, if I do, I'll post the link to it so you won't be left out of my life. ;-)
He is Just So Sweet
You should have heard what Jeremy said to me today. He's been failing everything lately because he doesnt do his homework. So anyway, his mom won't let him use the phone unless he does his homework, so today he did it. So when he told me, I said he deserved a prize. He said he already had the best thing in the world. I asked him what it was and he was just like, "You silly!". I felt so special. He is just so sweet and I love him.
A Taste of Your Own Medicine
Don't ask me why I just thought of this but...
You know the saying a taste of your own medicine? Well I got to thinking, which was quite painful, and I made up a theory on how it came about. So here it goes. Once there was this doctor, and he gave someone bad pills and they died. So the family of the person who took the pills and died thought the doctor deserved a taste of his own medicine. There you go, that's my little theory.
Go Haley!
Well this has to be quick cause I have to leave for school in like 5 minutes but anyway. Haley's OM team got 1st at the state competition, so now she's going to World Finals. That's the 2nd team from our town to go to World Finals. Guess who was on the 1st one. Come on guess. Fine be that way. ME! And Jeremy. But it's going to be so boring because Jeremy wont be there and it'll be a whole week. I talked to him the whole week last year and well...I guess I'm going to be making friends with some 4th graders.
Leaving for Binghamton
Well I'm leaving for Haley's OM comepetition in Binghamton. I wouldnt be looking forward to this if Jeremy wasnt going to be there. Darn you Jim! We would be competing too if you hadnt ruined everything! Ok, I'm fine, I'm fine. Dont worry about me. I'll just sit here in my corner. Alone. Not competing. Haley's science fair was...um...hmmm...I'm not sure seen as how I wasnt in there all night. Anyway, I started to write about this last night, but anyway, after Megan and Sam left I was finally alone with Jeremy. Nothing against Megan or anything but she gets very annoying after a while. He kissed me last night, for a long time. Well longer than usually anyway. I will say no more.
Him
Went to Haley's science fair but I hung with Jeremy, Sam and Megan outside the whole time. Quite enjoyable in fact. Um, especially after Sam and Megan left. Its not that I dont like you guys or anything its just... Well I dunno. It was just that I like being alone with him.
Waiting
Ugh I've been waiting for Jeremy to call all evening. This is taking way too long. I must go call him right now.
But thats OK
If this bores you people, please forgive me. I hate my french class so much! God I know that I used to actually like the class, but that was a really long time ago. It's the worst 42 minutes of the entire day.
Anyway, I walked home with Jeremy again today. Part of the way we walked with Kayleigh and Jazmin, but then we had to turn. Kayleigh scares me, but thats OK. I always say that. But thats OK. Sorry I'll stop. It's so warm out, I think spring is finally coming. I love spring. That means my birthday's coming. And once my birthday gets here, it means the school year's almost over, just exams. Which, by the way, I'm probably not going to have to take. Our teachers said that if we do well on the state exams, we dont have to take finals! Ha! That's four less days of school for me! Not to brag or anything... ;-)
But anyway. When Jeremy dropped me off a few houses down from ours (cause my dad would flip out if he saw Jeremy kiss me goodbye) he kissed me and it was a little bit longer than normally. But dont worry Jazmin, it wasnt that long.
Ah! Forgot something!
Oops forgot something! Kisses to Jeremy! I do know I could have just edited the post but too bad. XOXOXOXXX
:-)
Good Times, Good Times
I was just thinking about last year at World's in Iowa. I hadnt thought about it in a while. It's odd... I dont know. I know I spent a lot of time with Jeremy. I dont even know when I realized how much I liked him. At the time I was just thinking he was cool and funny and we had a lot in common. Then, I dont know, sometime after that I just fell in love with him. It's just completely a dream come true to me now. Every night I talk to him on the phone and when we hang up he says he loves me and I tell him I love him too. I've just been thinking about how it was just a dream a little over a month ago and now it's real. I dont mean to sound over dramatic or anything it's just that he's...well he's Jeremy. What can I say?
Brain Block
I cant think of any ideas for a template anymore! Ack! Maybe I'll just rearrange my Got Milk? layout so it has space for a tagboard and use that. Man am I bored. But I dont really even like my Got Milk? layout. I dont want to use my Ice Cream one again either, I want one like it but with a different color scheme and pic. I'm going pic hunting...
Ok so it wasnt so bad...
Ok, so I guess today wasnt so bad. But still I get to school and Chelsie's flippin out cause Ms. Burton isnt here. Come on Chelsie, she's a teacher. God she acts like she's married to her or something which just isnt normal. But then she tells me it's Cristin's birthday. God I hate Cristin. So Cristin comes in and Chelsie kicks me in the leg so I go Happy Birthday Cristin while I look at the ground and pretend she's not there. But I guess other than that today wasnt so bad. I went to Jazmin's house after school and we had hamburgers and curly fries for dinner. That was good. So I got home and Jeremy left two messages on the answering machine so I called him back. Then his mom was on the phone. So he didnt call back for like an hour-ish. Then his brother had to use the phone like 1/2 an hour into the conversation. So it kind of sucked. I usually talk to him for like 2 hours but nooooo. Fine people be that way. You know what, today really was that bad.
It's going to be awful
Today is going to be the worst day in the history of me. It's just going to be so bad. Forget it.
Today I...
Today I spent the whole day with Jeremy. Is that not special? I know, it is. Anyway, we went for a walk this afternoon then we hung out at my house. My parents were home, so it was OK. So basically, we didnt get a moment's peace all day. Haley was just being soooo annoying. She just kept following us around. We go in the kitchen, she's there. We walk into the living room, she follows us. We go on the porch, she comes too. Isnt that lovely? So then, he stayed for dinner. After that we played Uno Attack and that was just...embarassing. My family... ugh.
you are the cute but psycho happy bunny. You
adorable, but a little out there. It's alright,
you might not have it all, but there are worse
which happy bunny are you?
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Dory!
Yay me and Jazmin both got Dory on the Finding Nemo quiz! Sorry I'm like really into these quizes lately...
What Finding Nemo Character are You?
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Fairy
You are blessed with FAERY wings. Beauty,
laughter, life, magic...that's what you are all
about. You are refreshingly innocent and happy
with your life of purity and play. Life's a
game and it's a good one. In your eyes there's
no way to lose! You can be very mischeivous and
have been known to cause trouble, but it's all
in the name of fun and not meant to really harm
anyone. You like to play tricks on people who
aren't quite as bright or clever as you - which
is almost everyone. Nature is the setting you
prefer to be in - Always. Barefoot and wild you
can't be tamed. You're probably a restless
spirit who loves to travel, and quite a
dreamer. Your creativity is astounding and your
art (of whatever media - from writing to
painting to drama) is like something from
another world - ethereal and often very
fantasy-oriented. You can either be a social
butterfly or a loner with their head in the
clouds - but rarely inbetween. You stubbornly
refuse to accept responsibility or to give in
to the wishes of others - unless you feel like
it. You have a strong passion for music and
can't imagine life without it. You'll grow up
someday, but you'll always be a child at heart.
You are adventurous and love to take risks, and
feel a deep connection with the weather,
plants, and animals. You prefer sunshine to
thunder or snow, the warmth of summer to
autumn's chill, and quiet forests to suburban
backyards. Magic through and through, you are
far more powerful than you seem, and are
capable of being extremely passionate. Though
you can be childish, naive, stubborn, and
self-absorbed, one thing is certain - life with
you will never be boring!
*~*~*Claim Your Wings - Pics and Long Answers*~*~*
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Good Morning!
Ok well I'm up. Was on the phone till 10:30 last night. Jazmin, dont even say it. I know what you're thinking. "You're obsessed" Am I right? Am I right? Thought so. Just because I spent like 2 1/2 hours saying I love you, doesnt mean I'm obsessed. It's Sunday, isnt it? That means I have school tomorrow. Ugh thats bad. I haven't done any of my homework yet, I dont plan to do it right now either. I'll do it later, like in a couple hours, or tonight. Or tomorrow morning 5 minutes before school starts. Anyway I have nothing to talk about.
Bowling
Caitlin, Jeremy and me went bowling last night. I had wanted to go with just Jeremy but my parents were like no, you can't go on a date. You're only 13! So I invited Caitlin. (It was still a date) So it was a dollar per person per game. The first game just me and Jeremy played cuz caitlin was like I'm gonna make a fool outta myself. Then she played the other four games after she watched us make fools out of ourselves. But it was soooo fun! We're gonna go again in a couple weeks. I cant wait! So then my mom came to take us home. So first we dropped Catilin off. Then we dropped Jeremy off at his house. He gave me a hug and then he kissed me...on the lips! I dont really know if that was what he was aiming for but oh well too bad.
